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Monday, November 07, 2005
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hmm..after reading those sec 4 bloggs...
realised that tml is SS exam.the start of the O's.
so would wanna wish anyone taking O's this year.
ALL THE BEST. (:
May the FOrce be with you.

upon reflecting, i realised i didnt "Fully" utilise my year.
SERIOUSly.
all that BULLSH*T. of returning back to contribute.
never really came true, besides certain instances.
but RARELY AT ALL.
wth was i doing this year.
usELess bum.

but wished that they would understand.
i really do.
getting such HORRENDOUS grades do make one feel ashamed.
even though im keeping up with such optimistic front.
but deep down.
i feel that. i cant find them at all :(
when i cant find time to study.
or to do my homework.
or to try to ATTEmPT to finish those questions
AND GETTING the RIGHT solutions.
its already tiring me out.
i chose a "Slacker" CCA.
wanted to put in more effort in studies as well as PSS
but it nvr came true.
hectic workload. the amt of stress placed on me.
be it surroundings or myself. is driving me nuts.

but im still rather amazed that i could still keep up with such a happy front.
if i were not to be that strong. i would haf collapse earlier.
or even go bonkers. perhaps. they should just reserve a place for me at the chalet.

the expectations that i need keep up with.
from the smart one to a stupid one.
from the "EVERYTHING so EASY" mentality to "EVERYTHING so DIFFICUlT'
from the "Everything could be Q.E.D ( quite easily done) to "can NVR be done".
the feeling is like...falling from a high place...to the bottom.....
i dun even have the courage to talk to people anymore.
facing huge crowds. or even FACING SMALL CROwDS.
i just disappointed. VERY disappointed in myself.
i nvr want thhnigs to turn out this way.
didnt expect to screwed my JC1 this way.
failing a subject seems pretty normal to me.
and being proud of my FAILED physics.
im utterly disgusted.
DISGUsTED with myself.

-that may be why i decided not to return to PSS bahs. dunno where i could hide.
digging a burrow to hide is simply too tedious. i rather not face them.. what's happening to me. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo-

2:01 AM;

N {A lil'bit about me}

penelope
CERTIFIED AUNTIE :)
The Gang, The Usual People
26 November ,draGON..!18! : )

CCA
AJ enterprise
ex-AJ CHOIR!
ex-Junior Common Room Committee ex-Student councIl~

N {Loves}

icE-cream!!
MusIcaLs
LovE BallaDs
ShoPPing!
my guardian angel*
yakking on the phone
hugging wugui


N {WIshList}

get into Biz course!
new camera:)
book-out day!
fantabulous 19th birthday celebration!
More Musicals!:) (PHantom is heRE!)
ppl to be safe and happy:)
Grow taller
happy together

N {SnapS!}

tRIp to maLaysIa 2004
Prom night 2004
birthday celebrations at marina 25nov
incredibles class outing. (22 nov2004)
last paper of O’s (19nov)
DeepaVali 2004 (12nov)
graduation day 15102004
NYJCopen house 15 oct
Mr Ong's wedding
MarIna outing
AwWa home and sports meet
BuffET 2003
Urban dream CapsulE
Investiture 2004
Wits 2004
J8 and pastamania(aft wits)
URban Dream cApsule part 2
Modified neoprintS"biggER size"
RaCiaL Harmony PicS 2o04
The gaNg part 2
national Day parade 2004
Spiderman 2!
Spiderman 2!
Altus VCH!
Puden burfday
Ajc family day
last day in 2305
j8 neoprints with gangkhu
normal snapshots in 2305(new!)
Altus to Rickys place(V daY 2005)
xR birthday party!
Orientation last day! (o2)
2305 Normal snapshots
mr gabriel tan last lesson!
NerDs dAY 2305 (BE yourself day)
harmoc cum guitar concert
Jan and ME!
23052nd photoshoot
FIReworks 2005
NDP2005
Bday party BBQ at Jianye place-UsuaL ppl
Enrui bday!
AJ tchers day 2005
SNOW cITY on tCHErs day!

2006!
National day 2006!(NEW)
Others!:)2305!2006!(NEW)


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