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Friday, September 09, 2005
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I HATE the new me..
i feel that i have been changing.bit by bit...
personality, character, mentality.

the expired canned food. 0 TUNA? hahas..
nothing last forever, not even preserved pickles.
even they will get expired and be thrown away.
the studious me was gone. replaced by a heck care cum sloacker attitude.
i thoguht i will be able to focus well on studies if i joined a not so hectic CCA.
i was wrong.
i seriosuly need help in time management.
at one time, i only need abt 5-6 hours of sleep.
now.... 10-13 hours?
once so motivated to study.
will always try new maths problems.keep myself thinking and bombard myself with more and more questions
and now. maths tutorial chuck to one side.
always refused to practise.
CHEmistry. USed to be my best subject.
and now. A F grade.
good gracious me. what has led to all this things happening?

no more strength to fight on?
seriosuly, im so demoralised thinknig that i cant do well in AJC.
everytime i failed a test.
it seemed to take away my selfconfidence bit by bit.
from the 100% i had in PSS
im only left with abt 5% sure of myself.
that caused me to zap tutorials and model answers.
to copy tutorials. and trying hard to understand.
looking for teachers helped to a certain extent.
but still unable to perform under test conditions.
thats bad for my academic wise.

In AJ.
i find that i have changed totally.
i wasnt myself anymore.
i became so conscious of how others looked at me.
the way i treated ppl changed.
and the way i feel in aJ is like so... OUT of placE?
hmm... why is this happening to mylife.
to think in the past i can always get ppl to study with me.
stay back in school
or go out with me as and when i like it,
but... it doesnt happen in AJ anymore.
by myself, gotta walk to that deserted bus stop by myself.
wait for that bus myself.
no one to chat with. how terrbile was that.
no one to luff at my jokes.
no one to catch me from falling.
and i wonder how time managed to pass so quickly.
when i didnt do anything much this year.

perhaps i slack too much after getting into aJc.
and it seemed a bit to late to save myself from drowning.
things doesnt seem to go too well for me this year.
i better pray hard that things improve next year....

12:29 AM;

N {A lil'bit about me}

penelope
CERTIFIED AUNTIE :)
The Gang, The Usual People
26 November ,draGON..!18! : )

CCA
AJ enterprise
ex-AJ CHOIR!
ex-Junior Common Room Committee ex-Student councIl~

N {Loves}

icE-cream!!
MusIcaLs
LovE BallaDs
ShoPPing!
my guardian angel*
yakking on the phone
hugging wugui


N {WIshList}

get into Biz course!
new camera:)
book-out day!
fantabulous 19th birthday celebration!
More Musicals!:) (PHantom is heRE!)
ppl to be safe and happy:)
Grow taller
happy together

N {SnapS!}

tRIp to maLaysIa 2004
Prom night 2004
birthday celebrations at marina 25nov
incredibles class outing. (22 nov2004)
last paper of O’s (19nov)
DeepaVali 2004 (12nov)
graduation day 15102004
NYJCopen house 15 oct
Mr Ong's wedding
MarIna outing
AwWa home and sports meet
BuffET 2003
Urban dream CapsulE
Investiture 2004
Wits 2004
J8 and pastamania(aft wits)
URban Dream cApsule part 2
Modified neoprintS"biggER size"
RaCiaL Harmony PicS 2o04
The gaNg part 2
national Day parade 2004
Spiderman 2!
Spiderman 2!
Altus VCH!
Puden burfday
Ajc family day
last day in 2305
j8 neoprints with gangkhu
normal snapshots in 2305(new!)
Altus to Rickys place(V daY 2005)
xR birthday party!
Orientation last day! (o2)
2305 Normal snapshots
mr gabriel tan last lesson!
NerDs dAY 2305 (BE yourself day)
harmoc cum guitar concert
Jan and ME!
23052nd photoshoot
FIReworks 2005
NDP2005
Bday party BBQ at Jianye place-UsuaL ppl
Enrui bday!
AJ tchers day 2005
SNOW cITY on tCHErs day!

2006!
National day 2006!(NEW)
Others!:)2305!2006!(NEW)


N {links}

Class 3e2 WebbiE
Class 4e2 WebbiE
GolDen VIllaGe
CaThay
Eng Wah
JCrc WebbIe
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